Tuesday, December 25, 2012

None knows

Actually this post has been established and shared on Dec 25, 2012 9:59 PM.
It id just caused of some error in the page of design of my blog, so I deleted the previous one and share it here.

She said, “Your boyfriend is coming”
That girl said, “Who is boyfriend? The one that always takes the rubbish, your mean?”

How is surprised, he is the one who is liked much by that girl, that girl doesn’t believe that she can like that boy much, he is the first man who can camouflage the sorrow of man that she always dreams.
She can not believe that how and why the feeling that she never expects suddenly exist in her own self. In her praying, she never prayed to fall in love or hearty to man who is younger than her.
Yes, it is. That girl just ended her relationship from her lovely one due to she saw there was another woman who would be able to create his smile and care there.

What happen with that girl today, she was mad in the afternoon, disappointed while leaving the office where she works. Yes maybe it was fault, she should not be together with him, she had to avoid him, she had to be able to accept that she may not like that boy much, yes she can, she manages those feeling, she remembers always that both are different, she tries always to make her right, to deny her heart that it’s just something like big load burden in her heart.

He is her friend, she likes her friend.
Before she always advices to herself that sincerely is needed in every aspect of life, she always pretends that everything is alright as long the sincerity exist.
Someone asked her, "Are not you jealousy, as you know best that, there are other girls who is interested with him and they ask about him to you?"
Her simple answer, liking someone, falling in love and hearty to the one is human right, we couldn’t  forbid anyone else not to like to the one who we like.

People said that it is not love if we can not reach and make him/her by our side, but she told that love is not like that, it is peace, it is sincere, love doesn’t mean possess, it is not a thing that can be owned, it is a thing that is kept deep inside, a thing that loveable, a thing that peace, warm and comforting the heart and mind, love is like Muhammad SAW loves his ummat.

No one knows what happen with her today..

Tuesday, December 18, 2012


Dear ma sands,
I just came realize that I had been holding you for about more than four years,
I met you when I didn't know what the exactly means of life,
You came with your "DeadSoul" initial.
We started typing to arrange the words, then you said "Can I be your friend?"
Request sent and accepted be me.
Dear ma sands,
still I remember you used to say that you were unlucky man,
still I remember you used to think degrading yourself,
trying to make you understood that you were not,
do you still remember that?

You were gone,
You were gone and back, you back with "WAVE" initial.
I have lost you as my sands even I know that It is you "WAVE" who is I'm missing,
I have tried to find my sands in again.
Deep inside I still wanna hold you and walk through.
But sorry let me try to bury up what has been planned, my real sands had been gone long time before "WAVE".
You might know that I trusted you a lot,
but now your words mean nothing to me,
because your actions spoke the truth.

Saturday, October 13, 2012

Big Burden Inside

Something that I can’t confess that it’s …
Big burden faze this every each cell of my nerves…
Something that I can’t confess that it’s…
I don’t ask this and I never expect this…
All I know, it came like the wind, like the air which fulfilled breathing
It’s more than like a monster who comes and goes, it’s taking all part of me.

I don’t know why it is happen,
I just feel it, feeling so deep…
This is like a seed which is growing, taking root deep and naturally in me
Something which is always avoided by me,
Something which is always played safe by me before is exist and I can’t even deny
It’s like carrying away all of me
Does it mean affection getting going?
I’m not sure, just standing on the edge of time

Thursday, October 11, 2012


When you are young and vulnerable, emotional hurt is terrible with this experience,
it takes time to gather yourself and carry on,
but it's what you have to do,
as you said, starting from zero is the way forward,
experience will make you much stronger,
don't ever think that you'll be all alone forever,
because you won't be,
and don't give up on anything else that matters,
finding the true relationship feels like an never-ending task at times,
but that's bulls***

The secret is not to rush it, let it come to you because it will
what you do is carry on being you,
being beautiful and positive,
enjoying the fun times and learning from other times,
experience, one thing I do have
stepping forward from the negativity,
peace of mind comes by stepping back from everything
try and look at things from another person's view.