It was perfect

It was perfect when I am as girl under their caring,
It was perfect when I run reaching to get the harmfulness of their hug,
It was perfect when their first lovely daughter stayed near together with,
It was perfect when this girl has not decided to leave, away, far from home

It is not meant that this girl regrets her decision,
This life gave her a lot of things,
She saw a lot, she read a lot, she learnt a lot, she knew a lot,
All the things she knows

But someday, the day when she thought that it could be the most beautiful thing changed her life,
New hopes were created,
New plans were prepared,
New days would be started,
New appointment was built between two son of man

This might be the first time for her to start and learn how that man was,
The man whom came and said his truly deep of his words,
He talked a lot, he cared a lot, he cared his family a lot, that is all about,
It might be the reason why I could put hearty a lot

Times went by, I understand, but he more understands me as well,
he is nice guy with the soft heart,
he is nice guy who could keep his words,
he is nice guy with no exception

Today, I have decided, do not know whether it is right,
but I believe every decided decision is right if it will not create regret someday,
Anyway, I do not know how to pour and write all these thing by now,
I forced myself not to contact, I force myself to conceal,
Longing, it is just a while, then how could be.

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Not Entitled November 30th 2014

It was such beautiful morning, even though there was not dew which full of the air
It was such beautiful night, even though there was not stars shined on the nice sky,
It was such beautiful day when I came out from my small room and stepped up to the outside,
It was beautiful whether, even the rain is not falling down and wet the ground,
It was beautiful room, even the temperature is not warm enough for body temper scale,
I thank to God for everything, I am happy and I am so gratefully cause of all those gifts.

God gave everything, everything which is needed, creating smile happiness to anyone who accept it,
Everything are granted, everything were accepted,
Don't know but it is just blank at her mind, wanna talk a lot, wanna scream any, wanna share a lot, wanna type a lot, but no thought.

No one there, do sure that she will start talking and type about life, but talking about this will just recall her memorize back.

Seems she is bored, seems like she wanna drop something from her eyes, like tears but will be denied directly if I called it as.
I don't know about her, what is in her mind, all I know that she is learning about the true of sincerely,
Hard like hell, but yeah she is holding out.

Her and she are all about me, the one who gets difficult to show up her cares to everyone wanted instead of creating disappointment by her behaviors

I am sorry

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