Rush

When I start to know what the exactly means of love, I become more selfish. Feels like this body no powers no energy, when I start to describe what is meaning of love, I could not even hold this tears fall down. When I start to understand what means of love, I used to forget with the sincerity which has been holding inside, all I want it just that, what I want is just that, no more. Loving you is...

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Felicitación

Dear Lord, Let me told you one thing, probably you knew it, it is just because you can't share by talking or typing some words here without me, my finger. This self feels so, I can't even describe also how is feeling of it, I would love to say advising this self to deny this weird thing inside me. This self has been trying to work it out, but when the loneliness comes over me,this self used to say...

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An Ancient One

This self never confesses that it is tired, This self still be able pretend that everything is fine, This self is really deny when I start to confess that all the things inside of this self is just camouflage, This self couldn’t accept to confess that it doesn’t have strength like before, This self is really betray confessing that When this self is tiring, it can do nothing, even...

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Blank just longing

Writing here like no one knows, Writing here like no body knows, writing here while smiling up on own self, Yes, writing here is giving amazing sensation, Even I don't have any best idea to write here, but let's just write. I don't know what is being in this mind, but feeling happiness fulfills on it, even my self knows best that I do miss my parent and family badly, and feel so bad exactly, But...

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Not me but this finger

It is afternoon, what kind of  girl who woke up in the middle of the day, when the sunrise is spreading the ultraviolet spectrum, whatever calling for that girl, but she might have a reason. This girl told me that she lose her eagerness to type some words here, even I don't know what the reason was, but I told her not to be like this, it is yours, it is your authority, it is your words, your...

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Coming and exist

Dear peace of white paper on screen of my laptop, Let me say suite of words from the deepest of bottom heart inside me this night, I got his news, he told me directly that he is not happy with her, He feels so buried with her, he is so sad and full of regret, he told me frankly, Let's not talk about love here, cause if you weapon at me, I will say directly that deep inside I am missing him badly,...

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This girl and she is me

She said, "All I want here when I meet you, I just want to write up on you and share bout everything, I should be fair with my diary book but I couldn't. I always go into you and pour all what is typed by these finger up on you. I don't mean to think or decide doing before, I just think and my happiness is not decreasing at all when I know this. I just knew her about one year ago even we had been...

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Happiness is you

For sake of everything I started to put and pour my feeling into suite of words, no one knows what is being there in me or what is being felt by me, no nobody knows. For me love is just worse, loving someone is just like not important necessary to fill up, what I meant someone here isn't family included. People...

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Yeah I am, aren't I?

I wanna be I am as I am before knew you, that was six years ago, when I was in fourth semester of senior high school, Purma' who was calm girl, who has not known yet the whole and rude world, who has not known the sensation of liking someone, who has not known the ail sense, who has just known how to smile of happy life, Purma' who never felt sad, Purma' who was well known as Bahagia Purma', Purma'...

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Near but Far

I am not following you, I have not followed you, I have not been following you, never I feel that I just knew you several seconds ago, I talked to you and so you did, I told to you and so you did, I shared story, life and also my family and you did, You are like my close friend for me. Probably people thought that what I have been doing is just about you and thought that I am your follower, and who...

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Frowned

Sunrise shines from eastern horizon, like breezy air blows and wafts gently. I am awake from long sleeping, I saw them busy with their activity. Appointment has been created and would have been fulfilled today. On 8 am of GMT + 7 I have been ready for everything to go and join in that event. I am not the one who like to ask, I am not the one like traveling much, even I do so then it is not because...

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No words no title

May happiness fulfills your heart as always, may happiness comes close to you, may happiness stays and holds you tight always, may happiness becomes your friend, may happiness always surrounds you, may happiness becomes you, this tears such falls dropping, can not be controlled typing this words I don't know but it is happen, just I can't see you not in happiness, all I want in you is in happiness,...

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Through the screen

Dear the one out there, I miss you, it has been long time I know you and I was doubt on you without reasons, I am sorry for not able to certain myself that you deserved to get my trust, Let me say and blame myself for not be able to be together with you now, Sincerely I am not be able to forget you till this second of current time, I missed you so badly last night, I don't know what the reasons were,...

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I am blocking at you

I don’t know why this fingers typing it is so fast, I don’t ask it, I am not passion on it. I am blocking at you, yes you are blocked. It is hard to say, still I have feeling at you, a deep feeling which most people call it as I am your lover, No I am not, never I am called myself as yours, your lover, never That was just a moment when we used together, like we were helping each other, Supporting...

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Stranger by me

We should be friend and know each other like best friend if I realized and cared having friendship. Yes, barely I said that I was not an active student in that college, I knew people just passed away, all I meant here was just I knew and said hello to them that time when we had in same and one time, like when gather with people for any activity or event. I start to know you in that graduation...

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Tenses I

Today I would like to write a little experience of my journey, actually it is not a thing called as journey. I just visited to my doctor after going from work, but seems I am more interested to write about a little of English grammatically.  Like I said in previous words, tenses is a change in shape (predicate) of verb in a sentence which is related to time (at the time when the case happen) Trick...

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Tenses II

My best and happy greeting for you all readers ^^In this occasion seems that I want to type and share little thing called Tenses. Talking about Tenses, our mind will directly record about times, to be, verb, time signal and etc. Tenses is a change in shape (predicate) of verb in a sentence which is related to time (at the time when the case happen) Trick : If we learn Tenses, we will discuss Verb...

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True love is abdicate

Do you think that it should always shed? Talking about love will bear many opinions of it. People will shout and hold into what they believe and trust, not sure that what they hold whether true or its contrary. All those about are conditions which have been occurred in their life. I don't know where...

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Without words

Empty, silence, no words, scaring of screaming which is able to be heard by the animals and plans, lip wont ever be vomit some words, tongue feels like locked, words are like unable to be arranged, breezy of the air will be able to be felt by the human whose blood welled inside them, family wont be able to help when the God's delegates come to pick up the released soul from its place, best friends...

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Tell him

I don't know why I too much love this song, am I in that situation? this situation is just killing me, what kind of situation? I am just wondering with myself how could it be, and why should it be? Just like a fool question, once I am injected this viruses love, then those such question will roam in my mind, is it really love or just emotion for a while? yet I don't know how to answer that question...

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Difficult than Chemistry Task

Dear blogger which is always giving me a place to pour up everything, let me type some more here while eating this roti goreng cake which has been brought by him this afternoon. He came here to give back the hard disk to my friend exactly, while typing some more wishes words for his friend....

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Him, that one, stupid or dumb me ??

By listening this song, I feel like to write some more here, through this song... actually it is just hurt myself one more, this song, I ever sang it, with her I recorded and deliver that clip for you to show up, that I was happy here, even you were so million mills away, to show you up that I was be able to hold up the relation with you, we planned that we would meet someday, but it was not like...

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Seems Childish

To : Muh. Nur Arifin Dear my dearest brother, I know that you are in first grade of junior high school of the favorite one, I also know that you are staying in boarding home, I know that our parents have made your schedule fully, I know that these is quite hard for you, I do for sure that our parents has sent you to join at other programs for supporting your education. Dear my dearest brother, even...

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All I know I should leave him

Feeling like breeze blows and infiltrate into the deepest nerves, the one who is too high unreachable, all I know that I should not have this such feeling, all I know that I should forbid this thing, all I know I should find the solution of this, how should to know while I do know well that it is not reasonable, it is just sudden insensible realized and confessed. All I know I have to leave, I have...

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